I was never found of reading books and neither was I interested in blogging, things have really changed after I passed out from college (not really though). The day I left home having huge goals and expectations about my life and the C world I was planning a really different carrier path I wanted to write my GRE and then do my MS in finance, then I gave up on GRE as I felt its not worth reading as I wanted to do something different in life, though I still love finance and I still want to pursue a degree in finance perhaps the target of mugging up the dictionary or the gap of four years from education discouraged me.(I got an engineering degree in these four years). These four years I just did things to get the degree, I will be getting it in less than two months now I just have to fill in my PS diary and pay my student union dues to get my transcripts. Once I get them, I am an engineer my name will now have a B.E (Honors) suffixed to it. To be frank I don’t deserve the degree I don’t know the basic definitions in electronics and if you ask me what kirchoff’s laws are I would find it tough to answer. Perhaps, this is the case with many engineers passing out, but definitely in these four years I learnt to live life, learnt what good is and what bad is and now I am ready to take challenges in the world , immense amount of exposure that BITS Pilani has given to me, I owe a lot to my college. I was a very shy person in school and I only used to open up to the closest of my friends, I met people from various regions and I have best of my friends from various states who talk different languages and do stuff different ways, one thing which I feel worth mentioning here is that I was even shy to talk to girls it took one long year to open up and after that I was pretty comfortable talking to them.
I wanted to write about confusion in life and the way I have been dreaming of different things everyday to add on to my confusion. Getting an higher degree is almost compulsory now, whether to grow in an organization or to make quick money but somehow I am not serious about giving an examination and doing it right away though half the time I spend discussing about this with my parents on phone. I don’t want a desk job and coding is nowhere in picture, as of now I am jobless though my mom keeps boasting about my Infosys job back home. I am from a conservative family as most of us in India are my dreams are big but as all parents dream they want me to do a decent job and take the amount they give every month and be happy. They say people live happily when they do a job. That’s not right at-least I can justify this as 9 out of 10 people I met in the C world are just living for the heck of it, they do things as they are answerable to their managers, especially the people who are coding or testing as a matter of fact, they don’t know for what they are doing and how much of a contribution are they doing to the company. I will never work to a company in which my direct contribution is nothing. (At-least that’s what I feel now) . The last few lines that u read will clearly tell u that I am not even happy with the C world, so what else is left in life, I want to start-up and run my own company but I am not sure about what and when ? And also I am not sure about the amount of support I will get from the people that matter the most for me. I have some friends who used to share the same kind of thoughts like these but looking at them now, enjoying the de-bugging or testing or whatever desk job they are doing I fear I might end up doing that. Why? On earth should I do that? I have less than two months left and I have no job at hands after these days are done when people ask me what you planning next I need an answer, but as of now I myself am not sure what I should be doing and whether my big dreams will come true…
I was reading this book today “think big and kick ass” by Donald Trump which really gave me an insight to life. The best thing I realized is In life You never get a chance to relax, you have to keep working to keep yourself up in this competitive world. I also saw an advertisement in TV today which showed a mans life how he compromised on everything for fulfilling his family needs and finally when he is sixty he realizes he has to do what he wants at-least now. Yes, I have to be one of them I am not from a filthy rich family to start enjoying right now, so here it goes work ur ass out but “think big” to kick ass in life.
First it was GRE then a good job now startup my mind has been thinking a lot.. For all those people who asked me what next here you go this entry will answer your query.
With newly found hobbies and confusions in life my journey of life continues………..
